omg faintZ. read the autobiography that i wrote in sec 3. feel like. ugh. zomg shameZ. rtpioubmn. so pompous. and immature. and bleh.
i am a prey to my sloth and indolence~ ohoh ya it was in the news. of how men and women's sins were rated. for men it is: lust, gluttony, sloth, anger, pride, envy, greed. ok i think my first is pride. totally~ then maybe greed? i'm very irritated about sloth but when i try to look at myself from an objective pov i don't think... ok la not that i'm not using my gifts. but i'm lazy to develop my potential. ok this is a little warped shall stop.
i just read thru a letter i wrote to a friend... and it got me thinking abt faith. "We commit ourselves inside of family, church, community, and friendship but with the unspoken condition: I will stay with you as long as you don't seriously disappoint or hurt me. But if you do, I will move on! ... it is simply impossible to live or work with each other for any length of time without seriously disappointing and hurting each other ... We can't promise that we will always be good. We can only promise that we will always be there! And, in the end, that promise is enough... eventually the hurts and misunderstandings wash clean and even bitterness turns to love." - Fr Ronald Roheiser (that article on faith and fidelity)
from a detached pov, i think i'm quite lucky. cos i gotta experience firsthand of being faithful, and being faithless. i know the consequences of backing out when the going gets tough... of simply ending something just cos it didn't look good. and i know the rewards of staying all the way through... working at the chinks, tying the knots in a broken rope such that the distance closes up. i recognize what i missed and i treasure what i have. but i really wonder sometimes... if contentment carries with it the snare of stagnation.
the sacrament of marriage. i guess this is wat it's all about. fidelity. it's just a point when two ppl decide: we are going to stay together no matter what happens. is it about love? is it about passion? maybe it is. or maybe it's just about fidelity. "nothing more, but nothing less." it's a promise. a covenant. that's what marriage really is. that's why it's different from two ppl who love each other and simply live together. that's why it's such a blasphemy to divorce. it's a complete paradox to marriage.
on a sidenote, i'd like to pray for one of my friends. and i put it here to reify it. if not it'll just be some vague fuzzy desire to help which will amount to nothing. i pray that he'll regain his sense of wonder and faith. his appreciation of things good and beautiful. cos this time, the pendulum has truly swung all the way.
Name: Foo Guo Zhong Melvyn
Age: 19+
Affiliations: MSHS (Pri), Rosyth, RI, RJC, SFX (LoG)
Bday: 14th Nov
Email: mel_protoss@hotmail.com
omg faintZ. read the autobiography that i wrote in sec 3. feel like. ugh. zomg shameZ. rtpioubmn. so pompous. and immature. and bleh.
i am a prey to my sloth and indolence~ ohoh ya it was in the news. of how men and women's sins were rated. for men it is: lust, gluttony, sloth, anger, pride, envy, greed. ok i think my first is pride. totally~ then maybe greed? i'm very irritated about sloth but when i try to look at myself from an objective pov i don't think... ok la not that i'm not using my gifts. but i'm lazy to develop my potential. ok this is a little warped shall stop.
i just read thru a letter i wrote to a friend... and it got me thinking abt faith. "We commit ourselves inside of family, church, community, and friendship but with the unspoken condition: I will stay with you as long as you don't seriously disappoint or hurt me. But if you do, I will move on! ... it is simply impossible to live or work with each other for any length of time without seriously disappointing and hurting each other ... We can't promise that we will always be good. We can only promise that we will always be there! And, in the end, that promise is enough... eventually the hurts and misunderstandings wash clean and even bitterness turns to love." - Fr Ronald Roheiser (that article on faith and fidelity)
from a detached pov, i think i'm quite lucky. cos i gotta experience firsthand of being faithful, and being faithless. i know the consequences of backing out when the going gets tough... of simply ending something just cos it didn't look good. and i know the rewards of staying all the way through... working at the chinks, tying the knots in a broken rope such that the distance closes up. i recognize what i missed and i treasure what i have. but i really wonder sometimes... if contentment carries with it the snare of stagnation.
the sacrament of marriage. i guess this is wat it's all about. fidelity. it's just a point when two ppl decide: we are going to stay together no matter what happens. is it about love? is it about passion? maybe it is. or maybe it's just about fidelity. "nothing more, but nothing less." it's a promise. a covenant. that's what marriage really is. that's why it's different from two ppl who love each other and simply live together. that's why it's such a blasphemy to divorce. it's a complete paradox to marriage.
on a sidenote, i'd like to pray for one of my friends. and i put it here to reify it. if not it'll just be some vague fuzzy desire to help which will amount to nothing. i pray that he'll regain his sense of wonder and faith. his appreciation of things good and beautiful. cos this time, the pendulum has truly swung all the way.